May302012
I would be foolish and re-miss to continue in this relationship of sorts…..
beauty in the making, a lifetime possible….but there is a whole nother lifetime you have to tend to…
I would be foolish and re-miss as a Christian, as one who wants an unchallenged future, to stand to the side, middle or on top of the rug you keep walking over…
Your indecisiveness about someone who surely seems to hardly ever have your best interest at heart threatens my very understanding of you
And this US that WE have embarked upon with no expectations is surely about to become nothing….
I’m not foolish, stupid nor incoherent to this issue at hand…
and your words from your own mouth…seem to sound as if you think I will tolerate it….
True there are no expectations but if you expect me not to see the wrong in something that seems so right but is hindered by your indecisiveness…
You can’t be upset at my understanding of your explanation….
From the horse’s mouth….
2AM
attention caught, intensity on high, infatuation into deep like, teetering on something like love….
A love I had forgotten how to feel cuz I was too busy anticipating the hurt…but i couldn’t resist this time….
No self control over damage control of myself…loving this free feeling and ignoring what everyone else has to say about this…
something I feel they know nothing about regardless of if they do or don’t….
regardless of what I have said about it or the lengths I go through to conceal all of it….
but why do things that feel so right hold residence in the conscious state of what’s deemed as wrong….
why not stop b/c I do know if I fall he can’t catch me….no self control…..
4AM
I’ve done some talking and some dating in the last couple years….and I will admit I have been mannish….. Sometimes toooo mannish……but not always…..I’m completely capable of being a lady. What I find funny about this is that when I am what I was intended to be, the guys that I date are oddly amazed, delighted and say I have so many of the qualities other women they have dated didn’t have……..
Apparently those qualities aren’t enough to keep them around or I’m less enthralled with them and I dismiss them.
Eh shrug
So what I’m wondering is this…..what are other women lacking that men are seeking and why am I still single?!!?!?!? These are the $25,000 pyramid questions. Lol. No one will ever be able to answer these. SMH.
March172012
The idea of being special for someone brings fear. Fear of disappointment, fear of being hurt, fear of expectations. It’s almost paralyzing and deadens the livelihood of any possible relationship that may flourish. So scary.
March142012
what happens when the infatuation wears off?? When we talk each other out? When we’ve learned all We can about the other person? What happens??? It’s only been 9 days, but it feels like a month……….
It’s scary….It’s fun….It’s comfortable…. And I’m fighting hard not to fall hard as it’s too soon for that……
Soooo….. What happens next??
12AM
“I’m that nigga who was that nigga when I was that nigga….. I ain’t gotta act like it cuz I got it.”
Lmao imnotimpressed.com
